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im making some attempt to keep consistent with journal entries! ...yay?
ive started reading the durarara!! novels again, starting over even though i knew where i was and what was happening but only because the beginning is kinda fuzzy. am i allowed to love everyone?! from what i read im quite sure i definitely adored vorona
i had a panic attack yesterday which was really weird because it wasnt in any place where i usually have them but it definitely felt like the ones i get often when i enter an office or medical type building like the youth center or the hospital or orthodontist or even the corner barber at one point
now that i think about it we dont have anymore special cafe type places anymore since the last one closed a few years back. id usually go there by myself to study with coffee and fruit, and there were always upperclassmen hanging around near the fountain being loud despite the 'no loitering' law, so i usually stayed inside. i really miss it. it had a classy lounge, and a nice looking garden place in the back where the fountain was and pretty trees and flowers. all thats probably gone. i dont know, i havent been in that part of the city in a while, just no reason to i guess. i never really go into the city anymore actually. i just barely pass it to go to school, and only really go if i need to hit the library or the music shop, since the nearby town music trade shop closed. gosh everything is closing. im getting sad and nostalgic now, and im only sixteen. or maybe thats old enough to feel nostalgic in a 'gee im getting old' way?
wow im rambling now im going to end this entry...
ive started reading the durarara!! novels again, starting over even though i knew where i was and what was happening but only because the beginning is kinda fuzzy. am i allowed to love everyone?! from what i read im quite sure i definitely adored vorona
i had a panic attack yesterday which was really weird because it wasnt in any place where i usually have them but it definitely felt like the ones i get often when i enter an office or medical type building like the youth center or the hospital or orthodontist or even the corner barber at one point
now that i think about it we dont have anymore special cafe type places anymore since the last one closed a few years back. id usually go there by myself to study with coffee and fruit, and there were always upperclassmen hanging around near the fountain being loud despite the 'no loitering' law, so i usually stayed inside. i really miss it. it had a classy lounge, and a nice looking garden place in the back where the fountain was and pretty trees and flowers. all thats probably gone. i dont know, i havent been in that part of the city in a while, just no reason to i guess. i never really go into the city anymore actually. i just barely pass it to go to school, and only really go if i need to hit the library or the music shop, since the nearby town music trade shop closed. gosh everything is closing. im getting sad and nostalgic now, and im only sixteen. or maybe thats old enough to feel nostalgic in a 'gee im getting old' way?
wow im rambling now im going to end this entry...
